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K so here’s a little background.
About 5 months ago i met this amazing girl. We were a perfect match it was as if we were uncontrollably drawn to each other from day1 and we wouldn’t allow ourselves to believe it. Our friendship is beyond friends the level of trust was out of this world. We were either with each other or talking with each other all day and all night like literally we were each others sleep, sometimes i would notice the sun was about to come up when we forced each other to hang up the phone and we’d wake up a like 2 or 3 hours later to see each other at school (we attend the same university and we’re both engineers). She was the one constantly pushing for a relationship to the next level and from the beginning she showed most of the interest. You can bet it wasn’t long before we fell deeply in love and believe me we fell hard or at least I did. It was a very eventful relationship put it that way it’s inevitable with relationships at school. Words cannot and no matter how advanced the English language ever becomes it will not be able to explain how devoted my heart was to her nothing in my insignificant, short life felt like it could be placed above her, and she showed the same if not even more affection back. So shoot me if I treated her like the gold she deserved to be treated like, I couldn’t control my self and the sweet man that I am would come out 24/7. The relationship was ideal and literally almost out of no-where it went sour and and suddenly it was over the dreaded day came. She told me she didn’t love me anymore and gave me some pretty sad excuses like i was too cocky. I’m a bit of an introvert and get enjoyment out of other people’s glory and no so much my own but I’m human and have goals and desires and achieving these does make me happy. My close friends and anyone who I mentioned this to seemed to always be shocked, someone even broke out in laughter. This obviously leads me to a conclusion that my being too cocky isn’t the reason (if you knew me you would agree without a doubt in your mind). A lot of time passes and she appears to show no remorse or sadness for the ended relationship. We have still remained the most important person in eachother’s lives. Not a day goes by where I don’t talk to her and since we go to the same school I see her everyday, we even hangout with every bit of free time we can manage to get. I and totally crushed, there are probably only a handful of movies that portray someone who has been depressed by a breakup as much as i was but I did my best to never show the person who hurt how much they did (I’m not ashamed I haven’t cried in maybe 15years until all this drama). Recently the topic was brought up. She sounds like she doesn’t have the slightest interest even as thought starting our relationship up again would be impossible (A truth that my heart cannot seem to absorb for some reason). I also find out the reason she wanted to end it was that I was too nice? I only became like this when i fell in love with her, it’s how I am, passionate affection sort of comes hand in hand with true love. Apparently that made her too happy (can anyone ever really be too happy). She must be looking for one of those relationships with a closest bulging with problems to make people feel important in their insignificant lives. But I think that’s dangerous, she’ll meet and get involved with all the wrong guys who lie and cheat. Who wont care for and and appreciate her the way I do, and not to mention understand her, she’s very mysterious and tough to crack but I know everything about her. This has left me with a sense of duty to save her from making this mistake and the grim prospect it will bring her. So yes I love her even after what she’s done to me I still feel she may be the love of my life.
So I have this dilemma now here are the obvious options i have. If you are reading this you must know that I’m very serious and I am eternally grateful for your patience.
1. I am a firm believer in following your heart and mine keeps telling to not give up. So i can keep trying to instill love into her heart once again.
2. We’re best friends regardless so I can just come to terms with reality and forget that kind of relationship with her and we’d end up being friend literally forever. She is so special to me.
3. This is the most dreaded option but in the worst case scenario It may be the healthiest for me. I may have to completely shed her from my life which, will be hard because she calls me pretty much everyday whether or not I actually see her that day. So doing this in a way that wont hurt her will be hard.

K so here’s a little background.
About 5 months ago i met this amazing girl. We were a perfect match it was as if we were uncontrollably drawn to each other from day1 and we wouldn’t allow ourselves to believe it. Our friendship is beyond friends the level of trust was out of this world. We were either with each other or talking with each other all day and all night like literally we were each others sleep, sometimes i would notice the sun was about to come up when we forced each other to hang up the phone and we’d wake up a like 2 or 3 hours later to see each other at school (we attend the same university and we’re both engineers). She was the one constantly pushing for a relationship to the next level and from the beginning she showed most of the interest. You can bet it wasn’t long before we fell deeply in love and believe me we fell hard or at least I did. It was a very eventful relationship put it that way it’s inevitable with relationships at school. Words cannot and no matter how advanced the English language ever becomes it will not be able to explain how devoted my heart was to her nothing in my insignificant, short life felt like it could be placed above her, and she showed the same if not even more affection back. So shoot me if I treated her like the gold she deserved to be treated like, I couldn’t control my self and the sweet man that I am would come out 24/7. The relationship was ideal and literally almost out of no-where it went sour and and suddenly it was over the dreaded day came. She told me she didn’t love me anymore and gave me some pretty sad excuses like i was too cocky. I’m a bit of an introvert and get enjoyment out of other people’s glory and no so much my own but I’m human and have goals and desires and achieving these does make me happy. My close friends and anyone who I mentioned this to seemed to always be shocked, someone even broke out in laughter. This obviously leads me to a conclusion that my being too cocky isn’t the reason (if you knew me you would agree without a doubt in your mind). A lot of time passes and she appears to show no remorse or sadness for the ended relationship. We have still remained the most important person in eachother’s lives. Not a day goes by where I don’t talk to her and since we go to the same school I see her everyday, we even hangout with every bit of free time we can manage to get. I and totally crushed, there are probably only a handful of movies that portray someone who has been depressed by a breakup as much as i was but I did my best to never show the person who hurt how much they did (I’m not ashamed I haven’t cried in maybe 15years until all this drama). Recently the topic was brought up. She sounds like she doesn’t have the slightest interest even as thought starting our relationship up again would be impossible (A truth that my heart cannot seem to absorb for some reason). I also find out the reason she wanted to end it was that I was too nice? I only became like this when i fell in love with her, it’s how I am, passionate affection sort of comes hand in hand with true love. Apparently that made her too happy (can anyone ever really be too happy). She must be looking for one of those relationships with a closest bulging with problems to make people feel important in their insignificant lives. But I think that’s dangerous, she’ll meet and get involved with all the wrong guys who lie and cheat. Who wont care for and and appreciate her the way I do, and not to mention understand her, she’s very mysterious and tough to crack but I know everything about her. This has left me with a sense of duty to save her from making this mistake and the grim prospect it will bring her. So yes I love her even after what she’s done to me I still feel she may be the love of my life.
So I have this dilemma now here are the obvious options i have. If you are reading this you must know that I’m very serious and I am eternally grateful for your patience.
1. I am a firm believer in following your heart and mine keeps telling to not give up. So i can keep trying to instill love into her heart once again.
2. We’re best friends regardless so I can just come to terms with reality and forget that kind of relationship with her and we’d end up being friend literally forever. She is so special to me.
3. This is the most dreaded option but in the worst case scenario It may be the healthiest for me. I may have to completely shed her from my life which, will be hard because she calls me pretty much everyday whether or not I actually see her that day. So doing this in a way that wont hurt her will be hard.

K so here’s a little background.
About 5 months ago i met this amazing girl. We were a perfect match it was as if we were uncontrollably drawn to each other from day1 and we wouldn’t allow ourselves to believe it. Our friendship is beyond friends the level of trust was out of this world. We were either with each other or talking with each other all day and all night like literally we were each others sleep, sometimes i would notice the sun was about to come up when we forced each other to hang up the phone and we’d wake up a like 2 or 3 hours later to see each other at school (we attend the same university and we’re both engineers). She was the one constantly pushing for a relationship to the next level and from the beginning she showed most of the interest. You can bet it wasn’t long before we fell deeply in love and believe me we fell hard or at least I did. It was a very eventful relationship put it that way it’s inevitable with relationships at school. Words cannot and no matter how advanced the English language ever becomes it will not be able to explain how devoted my heart was to her nothing in my insignificant, short life felt like it could be placed above her, and she showed the same if not even more affection back. So shoot me if I treated her like the gold she deserved to be treated like, I couldn’t control my self and the sweet man that I am would come out 24/7. The relationship was ideal and literally almost out of no-where it went sour and and suddenly it was over the dreaded day came. She told me she didn’t love me anymore and gave me some pretty sad excuses like i was too cocky. I’m a bit of an introvert and get enjoyment out of other people’s glory and no so much my own but I’m human and have goals and desires and achieving these does make me happy. My close friends and anyone who I mentioned this to seemed to always be shocked, someone even broke out in laughter. This obviously leads me to a conclusion that my being too cocky isn’t the reason (if you knew me you would agree without a doubt in your mind). A lot of time passes and she appears to show no remorse or sadness for the ended relationship. We have still remained the most important person in eachother’s lives. Not a day goes by where I don’t talk to her and since we go to the same school I see her everyday, we even hangout with every bit of free time we can manage to get. I and totally crushed, there are probably only a handful of movies that portray someone who has been depressed by a breakup as much as i was but I did my best to never show the person who hurt how much they did (I’m not ashamed I haven’t cried in maybe 15years until all this drama). Recently the topic was brought up. She sounds like she doesn’t have the slightest interest even as thought starting our relationship up again would be impossible (A truth that my heart cannot seem to absorb for some reason). I also find out the reason she wanted to end it was that I was too nice? I only became like this when i fell in love with her, it’s how I am, passionate affection sort of comes hand in hand with true love. Apparently that made her too happy (can anyone ever really be too happy). She must be looking for one of those relationships with a closest bulging with problems to make people feel important in their insignificant lives. But I think that’s dangerous, she’ll meet and get involved with all the wrong guys who lie and cheat. Who wont care for and and appreciate her the way I do, and not to mention understand her, she’s very mysterious and tough to crack but I know everything about her. This has left me with a sense of duty to save her from making this mistake and the grim prospect it will bring her. So yes I love her even after what she’s done to me I still feel she may be the love of my life.
So I have this dilemma now here are the obvious options i have. If you are reading this you must know that I’m very serious and I am eternally grateful for your patience.
1. I am a firm believer in following your heart and mine keeps telling to not give up. So i can keep trying to instill love into her heart once again.
2. We’re best friends regardless so I can just come to terms with reality and forget that kind of relationship with her and we’d end up being friend literally forever. She is so special to me.
3. This is the most dreaded option but in the worst case scenario It may be the healthiest for me. I may have to completely shed her from my life which, will be hard because she calls me pretty much everyday whether or not I actually see her that day. So doing this in a way that wont hurt her will be hard.